Channeling our anger.
Most of the time, people react to their triggers that existed long before we met them. As I said before, we are all mirrors reflecting the other person’s expectations or fears in order to create something they wish to manifest into their reality. This is what it means by subconscious creation. We hold and carry beliefs and fears within the deepest parts of our being that we may be deeply unaware of, but we are actively creating our reality from them. The system naturally does as intended and creates based on those beliefs. This is what living a karmic life looks like.
We take on karma from our family members and ancestors, then we subconsciously create from this energy that exists preprogrammed within us. It is an old system that’s used to keep us “safe” as we pass down information to the next generation. This is the karmic cycle, and we have the opportunity to process and transmute these energies out of our system. When we can overcome karma and alchemize it out of our energy field, this can lead to a dharmic life. Instead of living unconsciously, we transform into living from a spiritually conscious, purposeful and intentionally creative space. It is possible to attempt to live a dharmic life through intention only, but creation is ever present. If there is an energy living within the most seemingly spiritual person, it will manifest to return that person to balance.
Today, as I was sitting and watching a video of my favorite evidential medium, I was interrupted by my dog breathing his hot breath in my face as he demanded my attention. For some reason, I was particularly upset by this. I told him to go away and Spirit told me that I’d regret doing that. So, I called my dog back to me and gave him a few pets before getting enthralled with the video again. I’d stopped petting him, and he continued to get in my face. I really began to get upset, but I also understand that he’s an animal and has done nothing wrong. This leads me to feeling some guilt, but ultimately, I’m irritated. I want him out of my face so I can focus, but in this moment I was being taught something crucial.
We can’t control what others do around us or to us. All we can do is control how we respond to people. It has taken me a long time to realize that I had the ability to respond instead of react. When we first begin our journey of alchemy it can be quite tumultuous. The emotions feel larger than life, sometimes. This is because we haven’t paid enough attention to the parts of us that need it most. Much like the people who create unconsciously around us. We trigger each other and apologize after hoping that it doesn’t happen again, but unfortunately the cycle continues.
When we can alchemize these moments and ask ourselves what the world is trying to teach us, instead of remaining the victim and demanding the other person to change for our benefit, we grow and release the energy behind those sometimes volatile emotions. This means we have fewer triggers and can begin to create from a more intentional place. Our reality begins to respond to our intention and desire instead of from subconscious beliefs.
So, as my anger rises from being distracted by hot air being breathed into my face, I’m communicating with Spirit. I remain open enough to listen and ask questions as I also continue to hear the video going on but missing the dialog. The gist of our conversation was regarding the fact that there will be people in my life that will react from their triggers and project their pain onto me. They will accuse me, they will attempt to belittle me, and they may go out of their way to accost me with harsh language. They may get all up in my space, much like what my dog was doing innocently; and I will get angry, because my boundaries may get crossed, or I may feel the need to defend myself from wrongful depictions of my character. Except, I’m aware enough to understand that my dog, and the people who are reactive to their triggers, don’t deserve to be beaten up or abused in return. That only perpetuates trauma.
Additionally, we shouldn’t focus on “don’t get angry,” because emotions are just our body’s way of indicating something to us. There’s nothing wrong with getting angry, and there’s also no stopping it. It’s healthy to be angry. It’s good to honor our emotions and notice them. But it’s important to understand that I don’t need to react from it. So, now I’m angry, because I don’t know what to do with my anger. If I let it remain inside me, it’ll fester and I’ll eventually react or explode on someone.
It is possible to control the energy of our anger and use it productively to create change through our words, but when we’re dealing with another person who’s not operating from their logical brain, and are instead operating from the emotional ego side of their brain, it’s difficult to do much of anything productively. It’s like talking to a wall. The person is triggered and is demanding that I change for their comfort. But I refuse. I refuse to change because I love myself deeply, I refuse to spend my energy trying to defend my character to someone who isn’t putting in any effort to understand me, and I refuse to try to convince anyone of anything. Therefore, this means that the best course of action would be to remain silent. I don’t mean passive. I mean silent. Like an anchor in a storm, I won’t budge and I won’t flinch. The anger may be present, but there’s a space for that, too.
The only caveat here is discerning whether or not an encounter is detrimental to my safety. This can be difficult to determine especially for people who perceive most interactions, or confrontation, as unsafe. But yelling isn’t a sign of danger. It’s simply a sign of a person that cannot control their emotions. Perhaps this is what triggers us to anger. A person gets into our space and yells at us, and our ego has been trained to recognize this as danger, but it may not necessarily be. I cannot determine for you which interactions are safe or not. There might be clues or differences that would tip you off, but the main point would be to trust your intuition above all else.
Now, the anger must go somewhere, so Spirit and I came to the conclusion together that I must channel it. Much like how I channel the energy of the earth through my chakras, I can channel other energies as well. I wasn’t sure where I’d channel it, at first. My mind wanted to channel it towards creating something in nature, or something beautiful or productive, but it wasn’t motivating enough. Although it was thoughtful and came from a well-meaning place, it’s not likely that I’ll be able to sustain that intention while in the heat of the moment. I finally ended up deciding to channel it into my manifestations. The things that I’ve asked Spirit to bring into my reality with intention and desire.
In order to channel my anger I’ve decided to use visualization. I prefer it most of all for manifesting, and I have a great imagination. It is possible to imagine while also remaining focused on what a person is saying, especially if the process is meant to benefit both of us. I’m not retaliating on a triggered person, and I’m doing something to maintain my own peace. I’m still listening as I process the event, but I’m also focusing on where to place the energy. Before, when I was in tense situations or difficult conversations I would do my best to transmute the energy, but it’s exhausting. I’m taking in their energy into my heart chakra and raising it to a higher vibration out of my crown, which takes a toll on my body.
The ultimate goal is to maintain my understanding of who I am and not take on their interpretation of me, then I can remain peaceful at all times. There’s nothing to snag my attention, and I don’t take on their energy at all. It flows right past me. But for the times when I am getting caught up in my anger, I’m going to channel it into something I want. Anger is a very fiery energy that can expand and burst things into creation. If we can learn to harness it, and not let it control us, we can use it to create amazing and unexpected things. I’ll be sure to keep you posted on any updates with this process and it’s effectiveness.